me?

what am i? i can't find myself... i know i can take my time to look for me, but... still.... i don't even know who i am... forget about what i am... *shrugs...
anyways...
trying my best to be patient, because that is one element that blows everybody that is close to me, i mean people try to stand it, but after awhile, i know they will just walk away and all, and i don't want that!
i just want to fit in some where... some where that i can call my own. some where i know i can feel relaxed..
sorry i haven't found that yet, if i had i won't be here blabbering on and on...
just stuck in the middle of everything...
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