freaking out...

ok... um...
alot has been on my mind since yesterday evening... omg... omg!!
ok um...
you know when someone that is your friend, tells you a something that might involve the safety of you and you family.... and your special someone knows abt it and is keeping it from you cos he doesn't want you to be worried and all... and infront of him you just gotta act like you don't know anything because you don't want him to be even more worried?
how do you even keep it a secret without even crying yourself to sleep? well... tears come real fast for me nowadays... didn't happen last time... gosh... freaking out!
help? someone? anybody?
anyways...
today was like crazy... felt like i'm just spinning in circles....
help...
ess