home....

oh....
stayed at home today... dun dare to go out for a certain reason.... um...
still sick but still alive... lol... =P
anyways...
dead boring... woke up.. watch movie... eat.. watch Korean drama, show's name is <说你爱我> really really good, but also very frustrating! not east to explain until you watch it yourself... sleep...
waiting for that phone call that will never come today...
man... i just hate it when you know something will not happen and you still wait for it... fat hopes... ppl are busy.. it's called LIFE... haha...
haiz...

i just love it the way you care about me... i dunno how to explain it... but deep inside i can see it... it's difficult to explain but, i guess only you and me can really see and feel it? i dunno... *shrugs...

i don't want to be living in a world of lies... i hate to even think about it when one day i open my eyes and i realize i've been lying to myself all this time... i've done it before and i don't want to hurt myself or anybody around me again...

dun wanna betray myself all over again...
i know how it feels... it's painful...

i just want to know the truth! also dun wanna live in world of doubts...

love you
ess