lots...

so i've felt alot of emotions, heard alot of songs that might have triggered the emotions, and seen alot of things that reminded me of stuff, the memories of the present and the past...
how sometimes it feels like there's nobody that understands you, nobody that cares about how you feel, that people take you for granted, or because they talk to you just because you are there..

when it feels like you're falling, and when that feeling comes, it triggers off a siren, a siren that tells the people that truly care that you're falling and need help... and then they find you, that feeling of joy, and feeling so touched, that actually, there are people that truly care and truly love you for who you are... from feeling like a depressed living dead to feeling full of joy,but yet somewhere in that little corner of your heart, the pain still remains... but i know, i truly know, that someday the pain will disappear, maybe not really disappear, but fade into the memories of the past... learn to put the pain at the far back of my head, to think of happy and positive things... things that will keep me going, running, and fill me up to the brim and let it over flow! i will keep on living, not for the sake of others, but for the sake of me... giving up like that is just not me..

we have one life to live, and we must live it to the fullest~

so enuf of how i feel..
today is our 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY! half a year man!! omg! so its the power between u and me babe, although i have to accept the fact that you are busy~ i love u babe.. we must be strong and carry on k?! love u! hold me tight and never let me go..

loves,
don't worry about me,
ess