stars... more stars... watever

hmm....
did nothing much today, just tasted lots of ice-cream... and i mean lots!!
my fav is still coffee ice-cream... yum!! and then...
i got a heart attack cos i din expect to be seeing someone face to face.. all though i did ask them to come... hehe... i did ask, but i also did say you don't have to come if you don't want to. so that counts as i didn't beg them right?? and then they came, and den become very 尴尬... *shivers... and den i had to go home... hehe... safe...
got back home started folding stars.. wah liao... pain... my index and thumb pain.... =( never fold like i folded today... father said folding stars is stupid and a waste of time... =( i only started folding yesterday what... cheh... i think its ok what... 哼~
um... nothing already lor...

my stars... i started to really learn how to fold them yesterday... =) like so proud to know how to fold stars... cheh... =.=


love ya'll!
ess

so what...

=.=

so what?? i got double stood up today... by both brothers..wah liao... so funny right?? cheh... we waited, and waited, called, and called, but it seems like the end of the world arrived today, and they were the only ones who got killed, but we survived... they are so gonna... whatever... =.=
haiz...
anyways, instead of sulking the WHOLE day, we found sth to do... we decided to scrub the walls outside my friend's store.. gosh.. so dirty... so sticky, we didn't finish scrubing tho, decided to finish it another day... but yeah, satisfied..
after that, ate 6 balls of ice-cream... strawberry, banana, and cappercino... yum... good good...
starting to learn how to make stars, with papers, i admit i'm a sucker at folding them... hey, i am trying to learn ok... lol..
nothing much happened after that... watched 13 going on 30, taught me not to want to grow up too fast..

me and 瑞 srubbing the walls...


oh, that's the ice-cream i had, it looks not very nice cos i took it after eating it..


me... =.= not a very nice pic.


the end.. =)
ess

full... cannot eat...

omg... just came back from a friend's day party and... there was so much FOOD!! loved it... so long since i eat that much before... whew!

anyways... back to before dinner... i got bored so we called my 黑道林大哥哥... and... got into trouble all over again... i shouldn't have called him, my mistake... fine!! we decided that this Sat. we are so gonna rock the KTV!! whoohoo!! the last we went together was like a few months ago... man... yes! finally, the time has come!! haha.. lol.. so EXCITED!! heeheehee... yup... we're gonna bring the place down... he better not let me down this time...

um... and then bla bla bla... nothing much happened... dinner was goooood.... the waiters were cute.... the food was yummilicious... um... the air con was great... and my phone is out of $$$$ again... =.=.....

but hey, its better than last month... during this time last month, it'll be like 175 sth yuan ( only like $33 SG)... but its still $$ ok... now only 90 yuan (SG $18)... haiz... just so busy lah... running business you see... so yah... ppl need to contact me.. haha...

friend's bday cake...


my fav. dish... prawn.. sry kinda blur...



love ya'll!
ess

心跳得好快哦！

omg!!

i saw someone that made my heart beat like its gonna burst out of me... *shiver... scary man...
that person is like a fren of one of my brother... wah... he knows my name, i noe his, he has my num. i have his... and so on... but hey... i'm shy ok... friends.. just normal friends.... that's it! i'm just making it clear...

he scared the hell out of me...

hot weather... bored...

i wanna go play... i wanna go KTV!!!!! where are my KTV maniac girlfriends!!! ah! it's been so long since we last went... =( i miss our 3rd home... 2nd is this shopping place.. *winks..

i guess in life u gotta loose some in order to gain some right?? kinda getting that phrase clear..

i need to PLAY!!!

ess...
sry if i sound so emo...

another day...

*waving!!!

like omg... what beautiful weather! yup... today was a very satisfying day, and i loved it, nothing special happened, but, yeah... its cool... did school... almost out, i think... =) but... um...

maybe all this happened for a reason... maybe it has to do with the future, maybe its all written out somewhere.. somewhere...haha... yeah, that's right.. i just have to be patient..

but hell yeah i'm looking forward to going back... i hope i can... all this is probably just temporary. yup. *nods head... 呼吸。。呼吸。。 ????? i dunno what i'm saying so yup... haha...

um... i hope all this will end sooner or later... i just need to breathe! haha.. but i found a new Taiwanese drama that i think i'm stuck with, 深情密码 , real good... um hm...

friend got a puppy, he's so adorable!! so small so cute... 2 months old... lol... =) sad thing is, i forgot its name..



love ya'll
ess... muax~ =)

最近有点烦，有点烦。。。

i have to keep my cool and CHILL!!

everything seems to be going so fast like a tornado and i can't keep control of myself.. i just wanna scream!!! ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i just want him back... i just wanna feel someone there... he was different. i liked him.. not love him. i've never loved anyone after "tsunami" (my first...), i've never cried for anyone else after my "tsunami"... my heart hardened... i liked my street dancer... he showed me things i've never thought of, or seen before... he opened my eyes... please forgive me....

i just wanna go home (SG) where everybody i love are... i wanna be with them... i prob. sound real emo. now, please forgive me.... i don't know if anyone will really understand what i'm going through... haha...

forgive me...
ess

boo hoo... laa loo... too too... bla!

i dunno leh.... *shrug, shrug, shrug...

beautiful, ugly, normal, abnormal, i dunno leh... so strange.. life is full of surprises.... yup!!! lol...

i feel FREE!! i need... Red Bull EXTRA... lol... had a can today and den after that, become SUPER HYPER!! taste goooooooood!! haha... and now i wanna become sleeping beauty.. no lah... i just feel so trashy today, like watever comes out of my mouth is rubbish... talking nonsense lor... haha...

nope.. just feel like typing, but nothing interesting happened today... same normal day...

happy birthday sweet 16!!! lalalalalalalalalalalalala happy birthday sweet 16... doodoodooodooo...

i love that song!! haha..

i love all of you!!!
ess
(don't mind me today, i'm just partially happy today...) =) boo!

*clears throat...

its raining, its pouring...

doo doo doo de wa ah ah...

the torch came... it started running at either 7 or 8... like finally the torch came to Xinjiang... and i got phone calls at that time... =.= still sleeping... lol... i hung up on every call that came.. feel kinda bad... and den woke up at 10 saw the torch running... had breakfast..

did alot of reading for sch. work... =/

um... den it started raining, still raining now... i like it... suits my mood lately... haiz..........

i want to change this year, but i don't know how... just really confused...

我靠。。。 那里有阿三告诉我。。。 能不能把我的阿三还给我。。。long story why we call him 阿三... =(

anyways... raindrops falling on my head... not really lah... haiz...

taken just now, can't really see its raining rite??


love ya'll,
ess

=)

what a day...

did lots of geography, math, and still gotta do lots more... haiz
no summer break this yr, oh who cares?? its better than being bored the whole of summer right???

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L weather today, ... i feel more relaxed..

took pics. of the store yesterday...

oh, the olympic torch is arriving here tomorrow!! sadly, we won't be going out of the house... oh well... its just a torch right??? =/ i kinda wanna see it, but 无所谓咯... lol....

i can sense that sth new and strange and exciting is gonna happen this summer, i can feel it in my vampire veins... *nods head... =)

the front desk, the sitting area...


love ya'll
ess....

ok, alright....

hi!!!

i love the weather!! we had our one year anni. today, and there were so many ppl there ok... lots of good food too!! haha...

made a new friend today, and yeah we spent time chatting abit here and there... um... and then we found some pics of the husky that used to be around but later got kidnapped, damn... =( she was so pretty... but now there's another husky dog that replaced her... haiz...

anyways,
not much happened... i'm free....

such a beautiful baby.... =/


ess

my....

tiring....

ah!! damn... i know i'm just being plain irritating... keep on bitching & complaining abt how my life suxs and etc. but... i think i might be wrong and all... lol... things might be clearing up after all.. maybe.. i dunno ok!! i dun even know what i'm doing... mood swing maybe??
ok...
anyways... the weather has changed and its cool now.. like not hot at all!! i love this weather..
i read something yesterday and this is what it said, "Do not arouse or awaken love until it so desires." =.=
ok, lemme get this straight, to me, LOVE is a huge sleeping dragon, and you don't wanna arouse a sleeping dragon right?? i think i might have awakened the sleeping dragon a couple of times... thats REALLY bad!! i think i seriously can be patient now... i'll wait for love to awaken... *soft laugh... *shiver...
anyways, i've been dreaming of being back in SG lately, and gosh, everytime i wake up, i feel so happy, i think i 'm in SG, but then down to earth, i'm in China... =.=
i shall be patient... i wanna go home so bad... =(
but hey, there's a real good ice-cream in town, i mentioned that be4 i think... haha... i just need to really occupy myself i guess...
watched Blade 3 yesterday and omg.. i love VAMPIRES!! haha, the most hilarious part is that, they made a vampire out of a pomeranian... lol... so hilarious!! its a dog! haha...

Nad & I (we've been through lots together right? that's why i love you! you're always there... )


raisin bread from our store.. yummilicious!


that so-called real good ice-cream... mickey mouse haha... the ears is choc. ice-cream, the face is vanilla ice-cream...


love ya'll!
ess

confused and tired....

what do you know...
got locked in the house the whole day... so sad... =.=
haiz...
i dunno...
i just feel very 乱...
tired... hot... ah!!
so insane...
tsk tsk tsk...
what should i do??
i need company! help!!
ess

i couldn't sleep...

everything seems like a nightmare...

i couldn't slp because of all the disappointments... you left nothing but disappointments.. it was cool, i thought you were different from all the others, and then you turned out to be just another game freak... i gave you space.... lots of it... i called you and you said you were busy playing games, and asked me to call back later... what was i to you?? i swear we had fun together... but all you cared about were your games... we didn't spend time together because you were playing games... i liked you... maybe it all came true... what they said " eventually one of two things will happen, he'll finally realize you're worth it, or you'll finally realize he's not worth it...." i guess that's true... *sigh... i dun even know why i'm writing this.... games is all you know... and u still can call yourself 大男人主义... do you even know what that means? u're just immature... real guys have everything in their heads... they have family, friends, their GIRLFRIEND, activities, games... they have bits and pieces.. but u only knew one thing, GAMES... i'm just so disappointed in you... you'll see it coming.... don't feel too proud, you are gonna reap what you sow! at least i still have my friends, you'll get what i mean when everyone around you starts ignoring you like you did to them...

ess

China....

well...

life goes on as it right?? everything happens for a reason right?? people come and go out of your life right??
yup... i know that so well... ha~ that always happens to me... i hate that feeling.. but if it wouldn't have been for all that stuff, i dun think i'll ever get through life.. lol...
hell, i dun even noe what i'm talking about!
i wish i could be Bella, in the book Twilight... *sigh... o Edward... lol... the book is about Vampires, and i am a number 1 fan!! lol... so =,=
i dun wanna talk abt relationships no more... ah!! i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired...
sometimes i just feel like sitting in a corner and just.... (for me to know and for u to find out..)
haha.. the weather is still so HOT!!! gosh.. summer...

i so totally agree!


i feel like doing this... =(



ah!!!
cya...
ess... bla!

*shrugs

hihi....

today was HOT again... haiz... i ate 3 ice-creams... gosh.. had no appetite for anything else but... ICE-CREAM!! but hey, this ice-cream was GOOD! good quality too... haha... not easy to find around here... real gooood!! lol

we painted the store today.. like re-painted.. yellow and purple... the store looks so BRIGHT! i'll take like a pic. tmr or sth...

but i'm bored... no one's calling me!! i noe i'm not out of $$... but.. went shopping with lil' today... she got sunglasses( i chose them, HOT! they look so cool!), a ring, and we got this blank book, the pages has no lines, its kinda like gonna be our diary thing... both of us exchange it every wednesday and then like yeah, well, its gonna be like a record of our everyday lives or sth... hard to explain.. but we know what we're doing.. haha... i saw this real cute tank top.. i wanna get sunglasses too... =) love it!!

i was gonna go for a foot massage today, but no one went.. =( i've never had one be4...

cya...
ess

omg... hot!!!!!

ok...
it is so HOT!!! its like what, 40 degrees outside.. i am not kidding... burning hot.. and there's practically NO wind.... =.=

we played soccer in the afternoon yesterday afternoon... and it was hot... man.. there were no clouds at all!! gosh... everybody was so exhausted... we had a so-called water fight on the way back too, partially, i got ice cold water poured on my head which felt... AWESOME!!! lol... and then we got 3 of our friends in a cab, and the guitar was put in the trunk, and when they got to amanda's hse, they FORGOT to take the guitar out of the trunk... so sad, it was like lil's baby.. man... she's fine though... =/

when we got to mander's hse, there was air-con... heavenly.... =) real good.. we watched Miss Congeniality and then had lots of pizza for dinner.. stuffed!

later on we went up to the roof (14th floor) and got our tents set up.. had marshmellows too!! by the fire!! hmm... yummilicious!! we watched the sunset too!! spent the night on the roof, awesome but HOT!! gosh.. it was lovely though, there were so many stars!! beautiful!! just so amazing.. lol... it was high but yeah, we talked alot, and then lil and abby watched 27 dresses in the tent, while manders, chloe, and i chatted and did crazy stuff.. lol.. but it was still early in the night, just a little passed midnight... um... we were watching drunkeds ( drunked ppl? ) fight downstairs too... we could see them alright.. oh yea, there were chickens on the roof too!! man.. but they were locked up.. anyways.. more food came, girl talked... yeah, it was all very cool, except really HOT!! took lots of pics. too~ slept at 4:30am and got up at 8:30am... lol... it was so hot in the morning... ah!!! i got a tan tho!! haha... cleared up, had breakfast then went to the store...

nothing much happened at the store.. i was just feeling so annoyed at the whole world because it was so hot!! fine, i admit, i was being a grouchy puss.. =.=

but hey! i gotta a DIET COKE!! lol...

view of urumqi... partially..


negative.. it was at night.. love it! and marshmellow fire...


the blue sky.. took it while playing soccer...


me on the soccer field...


few pics. of sunsetting...


me and lil...


love ya'll!
ess