state of confusion

well,
a lot of things have been in my mind, somethings are starting to clear up bit by bit, but there's also the pressure around me..
it's not that they're doing anything, but, how do tell someone about a certain something? i know it really depends on what the subject is...

i know, it's called LIFE.

maybe i just have to stand up... i know i'm strong and etc. but i guess this time i really really have to PUT ON MY BIG GIRL PANTIES... haha... maybe i really should... open my mouth and just spit it out...

life's a ball of tangled yarn... but i guess as you go through the different steps in life everyday, you'll eventually untangle it all out... but i doubt we'll really seriously untangle it ALL...

ess

another Sunday

like wow... time flies and there's nothing to do.. chatted with bestie, she said she envies me so much... tried telling her that i'm not perfect.. she argued that i have everything... a bf, laptop, hp.. u name it... it's not like she doesn't have a hp... but kept telling her that boys aren't everything in the world... there's more to life that guy and their toys.. they also can be damn irritating sometimes la.. but i guess it's forgivable.. their also humans so? lol...

i guess you can say there's more to life that just fun.. i mean, if you don't have $ or education, how are you supposed to have fun.. but yeah, studies are important too.. i have to admit.. =.=

study now, and then have FUN, like REAL FUN later on... my dad keeps telling me, " There's a time for everything... " it is a real fact...

so.. have to keep myself motivated... keep on studying, enjoy later... *shrugs..

it's like sunset in the background!

ess

p.s. i want a pet

at home...

ah!!!
today like so sian leh... at home the whole day, not allowed to go out, gonna die liao lor..
haiz... so frustrated.. not even allowed to chill with frens.. wat kinda world is this? omg.. slap me!

busy with school, mostly electives, weather getting damn cold la! see, that's the problem. when it's summer, i want winter, when it's cold i just want it HOT! i tell you guys ok... humans are like that... human nature.. never satisfied with what we have.. sorry.. we're after all just humans ok!

life is great... just tat there's some things that are difficult to tell someone... like parents for example.. so much i want to tell.. but so difficult to put in words.. wah piang.. =.=

whole day on9.. haha.. sian.. wahliao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

love u!
ess

when it all gets sticky...

when you move on, you're happy with the present, and the past comes creeping up to you.. and that's when i just sorta wanna break down...

but hey, sorry but, i gave you so many chances to get back together, but you didn't respond... and now when you see that when i'm happy and loving someone else you just have to give me all that b*llshit.. damn...
go get a life!
but i guess i'm not that merciless ok... 我真心为你祝福...

but hey baby, don't let go.. what we have is strong... don't forget our promises, what we have...
we're not gonna let anyone mess us up... i love u

loving every minute...
ess

haha

today went to the visa place, but still not yet renew it yet... haiz...

dunno wat to do liao... sian with life...

happy sad happy sad...
wahliao..

really frustrated with everything la... seriously everything lor...

my whole world... life as if its caving in, whatever i try to do will help let my world cave in... as if everything is a beautiful disaster...
like u are...

good in every way to me, but there's a part missing in you... such a beautiful disaster...
shrugs..

well...
i'm just freaking tired!

ess

b-e-a-u-tiful!

happy all the way!

baby FINALLY came... we spent 2-3 absolute days together! and boy, did we have fun.. stayed at home those few days.. he came and we had fun hell yeah!
we bought 情侣 rings... they're like stars, and then they fit together perfectly just like jig-saw puzzle... haha..

he left on sunday even tho he wanted to stay a little longer.. =( man.. starting to miss my baby real bad, it hurts..

but i know i can wait... i love him.. haha...
silly girl...

LOVE IS PATIENT? right?

those days we spent together are short but we did have great fun...

today is our 101 days together!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i love u baby!
ess

3 months and so?

like haha...
today is our 3 months anni. and so?
happy but sad... what's wrong here? omg... i dunno!
i like u, u like me.... *shrugs...
but hey, seriously, you've been a big hit in my life.. i'm telling the truth ok.
i want this to last ok?

other than THAT.
my life is going ok... rushing against time...
it's beautiful... if life gives u lemons, make lemonade!
just stating the fact!

weather is good... getting cold but it's cool!

love u
ess
p.s. i need u

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

today is baby's bday! 19 liao lor...
old man! no lah!! haha..
i really wish i could be there with u to celebrate! miss u so much...
sorry that your parents are not with u today, all busy with their own lives... but hey, at least u have your grand-parents rite?
2 days later and then we're 3 months together liao.. =)
we have to be strong ok?
i love u!! lol..
don't forget i'm just a phone call away!
love ya!
ess

long time huh?

nothing much going on lah...
just keep on studying and studying etc.

weather is ok.. everything is ok lor...

baby's bday is this friday, 10/10... and dunno if we can spend it together... so difficult... then sunday, 12/10 is like our 3 month anni. liao... haiz...

sometimes i just feel like getting go... dunno if we have time for each other anymore... even tho we really wanna spend time together la... but LOVE IS PATIENT right?

what LOVE really is about...


whoooo...
ess