not sure... stuck..

lately haven't really been concentrating during class.. difficult to really concentrate when you have so much in ur mind..

even though u're back we also can't see each other... feeling really uneasy.. but i know i have to be PATIENT... but... i just want to see you so much.. i really miss you...

just feel so stuck.. lost... 我真的很想你....

yesterday keep playing with dunno what breed dog, but very big leh! but that one only 6 months... huge...

dun even know what i'm writing...

haiz...
miss u
ess

new

omg la!
i want that nokia phone...
i want JUICY COUTURE...
i want fun....
i want good stuff...
i want you...
i want you to come back and be able to spend more time with me...

JUICY COUTURE...


so you guys want to buy me any present... you can get JUICY COUTURE... or anything that have crowns on it! =)

ess

like that lor

haiz..
lately alot alot of stress..
keep saying want to die, but then after that come to think of it, i remind myself that i not yet do alot of things... i still not yet get juicy couture ok!
incredible...
it's called life...
have to pull through.. i want to... =)
some plans have been changed end up really disappointed..
nothing to say...
haiz...
well, i guess i just gotta be patient..
time changes things
*shrugs...
不知道啦...
anyways..
=/
i just want you to know i really miss you..
ess

omg!!!

baby is coming on Wednesday...
arriving at 4 something.. but...
the problem is...
have to go to teacher's hse at like 3pm... =( ... to study, and then have meeting...
will finish around 10pm...
how?
so i told baby to come pick me up after that lor...
he said ok, but his mother want him to go back right after he land.. so selfish right? not offending anyone hor.. but ppl also tired mah.. he not robot ok... wahliao.. tsk
haiz...
so excited, but so nervous! breathe!!
also got another problem... now got essay and report to do... haiz.. STRESS la..
keep saying i wanna die, but after that... i remind myself i not yet buy so many things, or do so many things so... i still wanna live lor.. haha...
stress...
i miss baby.. but also so damn nervous..
love u!
muaxxxx...
ess

2 months...

hehe... =)

well... today is September 12, 2008 right?
we've been together 2 months... yup..
but it doesn't seem right.. feels like we've known each other so much longer... haha...
it's incredible how time flies..
it just passes through your hands.. wow!
=)

that's just a short dedication for us..
anyways.. today was like cool.. nothing much happened..
baby got another new puppy to look after now... and i'm her mother, he's the dad...
her name is 伊林白妹... B-E-A-U-tiful huh? lol.. hilarious... my pal and i got the idea for her name from the incredible drama series <18禁不禁>.. wonderful.. =)
he's coming back probably end of this month, or somewhere around there... nervous.. haha.. time flies..
so catch it while you can.. don't waste any more time.. i keep trying to tell myself that.. =/ oh well..

our baby girl.. hehe... cute?

一直在这里等你哦!

ess

time!!

ok..
to really admit it...
i'm sick of it.. i know i'm trying to learn how to be patient this year and etc. but.. c'mon..
it's really sickening! they keep bringing it backwards.. or rather later..
why can't they just let you come back! damn..
gonna blow someone's head off soon.. ah...
so freakin' pissed..
i hate ...
i dunno...
i guess if you don't keep track of time, it just flies right by you..
for example.. August flew by with a blink of an eye!
lol..
haiz
ess

omg... going down...........

ok...
caught up with school today... did like lots.. almost die.. my brain cells were like blowing out of their socket thingys..
tsktsktsk..
and then trouble came looking for me...
see... i'm searching for the right, but it seems that wrong really loves my company...
well.. was playing badminton... almost hit passerby in the facek, damn funny... lol... and then retribution la... almost got knock down dead by stupid car.. wahliao... felt like smashing car with the racket... haiz..

i don't know what to do...
everything seems so vague...
you are close, but it still feels like you're a thousand miles away...
ppl keep talking...
what can i do to seriously shut them up and stuff their mouths with anti-rubbish fluid?
damn...
i know they're being thoughtful but hey...
*shakes head...

speechless...
lol...
ess

pls...

well...
been doing nothing lately but studying, and playing badminton...

i really miss you.. ppl around me keep warning me, but i really don't want those warnings to be true..
i don't want my heart to broken once more...
i want what you said to come true.. that we'll last forever... pls...
i'm scared... pls...
i bruise easily...

ess