haiz...

aiya...
sian...
have been staying in the house for like 2 days already.. omg.. not allowed to go anywhere, just study, study, study.... =.=
aiyo.. i'm gonna die like this, like a bird dying in a cage... =(
even walking around the estate still feel like being in prison.. wah piang eh... die la...

anyways... things are cool now... just that he has this thing that he wants to go swimming and drag me along... something wrong with his head... i know how to swim but no mood lah... =.=

um.... ate alot... some more got ppl who are fatter than me say i loose so much weight already.. omg.. how flattering... haha.. lol.... =)

latest investment so far... buying Heineken shirt... me and lily bought them.. she has pink i have green... *shrugs...

oh yeah.. something wrong with my elbow.. pain leh... dunno what i do... hurting since yesterday morning.. wah liao... hiaz...

rabbit before she ran away....


my Heineken shirt.... haiz...


bored...
anyways.. love ya'll!
ess

shitty day lah!!

omg...

can't anyone just study in peace! omg.... freak lah!!! stupid basketball... go to ****.... ah!!!!

can't anyone just hear me before judging me! can't anyone just listen for abit!!! can't you just listen...

you don't care what my explanation is, you won't listen.. i know you've had a bad day, i feel you... but still... can't you just listen to what i've got to say? i know how you feel, but have you thought about how i'm feeling too?? why can't i have a bad day too?

i am so disappointed... you've never spoken to me the way you did today. it scares me to see you like that. i know you don't want me to be worried, but if you hide things from me, it makes me even more scared... i hate it when your friend calls me and tells me you've been injured... i hate it... and then i ask you and you say you're fine...

you promised me you won't hide anything from me.... i know you don't want me to be worried, but still.... it worries me even more if you keep on doing this...

ess

hello friend...

omg...

the rabbit ran away from home... and its GONE... who cares... it kept hopping away, so i guess it really left for good.. maybe it became rabbit soup or maybe even rabbit kebab. so sad... i dunno..

got my $$$ today... hehe.... so happy... but its only half of the $$$.. mother not very sure that i she can give me the whole of it... you see i have this problem of spending $$$ unwisely, and tend to go on scary SHOPPING frenzies... that can really give a healthy human being several strokes and a heart attack, and no, i'm not exaggerating. even i can get freaked out by the way i shop. *shivers...

planning to get handcuffs, a bag, 2 shirts, and another pair of sweat pants. dun ask why i want handcuffs... everybody's been asking nonstop... fine! its because i saw this little kid playing with a set and i found it fun... =.=

hmmm.... baby got bitten by one their dogs because he was protecting this old lady... so sad, so pain... act of being brave... so they're fixing his hand for 3 days... pain... =(

haiz... staying home this weekend, locked in the house by my parents... well, not exactly locked in... but still. haiz...

i miss everybody....

aiya... i just wanna run wild... free from everything, forget everything....

i love you!!!!
ess

long long long.....

=)

very happy and satisfied with life lately..
things are going well...
baby still not sure when he's coming back, but yeah... they've been busy too... same here.. lol.. haha... =)
my pal got a new rabbit, well, someone gave it to her, and wow... what a hand-full!! omg... it's driving us insane... =P
i miss him, i miss him, i miss him....
they got their new uniforms and it is so 帅!!
but den i'm not allowed to post it on the web because they said its private, so ok lor... nvm... i see can lor... =)
haha...
nothing much, but haiz... life is good... =)
but i'm afraid to be happy, because everytime i start to become too happy, things start going wrong... =( haiz...
anyways... might be going SHOPPING this weekend.. woohoo.. so now need to start planning on what to get... haha.. scared the $$$ fly too fast... =(
um....hmm...
that's it...

the rabbit... her name is 阿宝.... caught her by the ears 'cos she kept running out...


my shoe is the red one... we all wore complete black that day, and the same kind of shoes... lol...

love ya'll!
ess

hi~hi!!

hehehehehehehe...happy...

baby said he's coming back soon, but not sure of the date yet... =(
can't wait liao... lol... but we still call each other everyday... haha.. like every minute of the day we're still in contact... =) just feels like he's next to me. well... we've got plans... lol....
they handed him a so so so so so so CUTE puppy for him to train... oooo... baby.. he says the puppy is his son, so i'm the puppy's mother... =.= but he's so CUTE! the mother dog gave birth to 20 puppies... omg... and all of them are still healthy and alive! haha... at first i was saying she can really give birth, and then he's like, NO! the male dog can really you know... haha
my mind is already polluted enough. *weak laugh...

went partially shopping with my friend today, saw my brother working at one of the store... hmm...
he cut his hair... =( anyways...
saw so many nice clothes, but no $$$... haiz.... what to do.. nvm.. wait until end of the month den $$$ come to me!! lol...

nothing liao lor...
tmr maybe going window shopping... dunno...

the CUTE puppy... baby's son...


love you baby!
ess

messed up alreadly lah....

完了！！
die die die... i messed up so big tis time!!
wah... like 2 boats like that leh... so scary!! =(
anyways!!

what a happy day yesterday.... =) happy for 2, abit sad for one lor... sry... *shrugs... i didn't mean to hurt you, but our thinking is just different...

my baby and i chatted for like forever on9 yesterday... so sad... i misssss him so much... =( he's coming back in like 2 months time... 我想你了，怎么办? haiz.... but hey, that's why hp is made for right?? to communicate right?? =) haha... but we are so gonna ROCK the world when you come back baby!

um... did nothing much until evening time, when to ROCK the KTV with gfs... omg... so HOT inside leh, like suana.... =.= haiz.... air-con got problem... haiz... =( got cold beer... =) someone got drunk.... not me ok!! haha.. lol... spend 3 hours in there... i still prefer the 天界丽都... in there got more discount... but anyway, today is other people 请客... so nvm lor! haha...

nothing already lor... i want a puppy.... =( mother dun wan... haiz... can't even gimme a chance to prove that i can take care of a puppy... haiz... o well... haha...

my fren took snap shot at me looking at their ice-cream freezer... hehe...


byebye...
i miss my baby...
ess
p.s. 当你孤单你会想起谁?

uh o... down to earth...

my dad just gave me a long, earthquaking, scary, a real down to earth lecture about where i am in life right now, and how my path in life is going... and omg... i just saw HELL if i don't seriously study now... omg... so scary la... this is called life.. *shivers... scared... i'm scared...
i'm stuck.... ah!!! i gonna go insane... i dun care... i'm gonna die... i need help on finding ways to study!! SOS!!
wah liao... why is life so scary?? =(
feel like i'm in a deep, dark corner.... dunno where to go... help..
=(
i need help..
ess

i dunno...

well o well...
every end is just a new beginning and omg... that is so TRUE... you loose some in order to gain some in life... that is so so so so so so fair...
being just ordinary friends is better than anything else... lol...
oh well... the past is the past... what can you get from the past??? maybe some happy or maybe some very devastating memories.. so why even bother thinking abt what has already happened?? its just wasting your time..
i wanna turn over a new leaf, and start all over again... psst.. the other side better not be rotten! lol... watever!
what is more important, is that you should be looking towards the future... i dun wanna stay in square one no more, i wanna move on to the next square~ and TRY to never look back again... ppl say to try to forget the past, not saying i dun wanna do it, but HELLO! you can really forget it only if you like loose your memory ok... i am not overreacting la...
anyways... so what... i'm moving on... that's it!
dun wanna waste anymore time... i've lost too much, i've wasted my tears... 浪费我感情... no more to be wasted! =) *winks...
love ya'll
ess...
i'll be fine...

ow....

it hurts... why is everything done like playing a game...
why does it hurt...
i feel so stupid... crying...

再见了我的最爱。。。
我想你真得很想你， 不知道你想我吗。。。 其实我很烦恼你知道吗~
我应该懂得安心不要自己在去想念你~
为什么我那么喜欢你我得不到回答~
你真很自私啊，你已经离我而去，我的心真的好痛，你感觉得到吗？
就要让你知道我多么的爱你，不要再逃避好吗~
我喜欢你，但也很恨你，可是我一只珍惜你。。。
放弃你我真的做不到，你知道我难受吗？
我恨你自私，恨你曾经放弃我。。。
为什么你要我难过，不肯接受我。。
我想告诉你我永远都喜欢你。。。

为你掉眼泪。。。 我舍不得可是时间回不去了，爱你很值得，只是该停了。。。　

i'm sorry, your mom knows abt us... don't worry abt me, i'll be fine... don't forget us....

ess

blinded...

omg, omg, omg.....
i did sth out of my senses... oh no........
i used the 斗牛兵法, from 斗牛要不要....
i did it blindly without even knowing it.. omg...
i got that person back, and uh o..... happy... lol...

didn't go home last night... told them i staying at friend's hse and den some plans were changed so, spent half the night outside with a friend... wah... 无聊... only 2 of us... den went back to her place at 4... share one bed... so small... so hot... wah liao... lucky i come back tonight.. otherwise i die outside already... =/

tsk.... aiya... i dunno lah... stuck in the middle of a messy situation... dunno how to solve it... it can be like 1 sad, 2 happy, or 2 sad, 1 happy... feel so guilty... =( help!

ess

pink...

nice smell....
good day...
tired....

wah.... so nice smell... the JLO fragrance.... Love At First Glow... ok... that is so MY smell... *snifff....
nice nice... i dunno how to describe the smell, but i noe... its SWEET... yup... i like it... ok..

nothing much happened after that... did lots homework... ate alot....

um.... it rained....

nothing lah... this period of time just really boring... 无聊。。。haiz... i need to go shopping... i just can't choose... either i buy clothes, or i save $$ to top up my phone bill... only can choose one... which one??

MY smell... Love At First Glow...


i need ice lemon tea... =)
love ya'll!
ess