it hasn't been a week yet....

anyways...

this weekend was awesome!! i had that slpover with Manders at my house and we stayed up till 5 am just watching movies, eating ice-cream, and chatting abt... um.. for me to know and for ya'll to find out.. lol... haha... man... we woke up at 11 am on Sunday.. haha.. i love my girls...

well sunday was great!! went SHOPPING with Lil' and got pics done tooo, china style of neo-prints... we actually wanted to get the same shirts but not enough $$$... =.=.. but even though, we got necklaces, both of them a like jigsaw puzzle pieces and they do stick together!! haha.. and we also got lollipop purses.. mine's red and lil's is black... =) and now i'm out of $$$ and my phone is also out of $$$ AGAIN.... haiz...

oh yeah, and one of our friend's little boy who is like in kindergarten made a flower thing for me, so sweet, so cute.. lol.. it looks like its blowing in the wind or something.. =)

anyways... i try be cool as ice...


i dunno why but we keep fighting.. he spent the whole day playing computer games when he could've come and met me... i know he's busy and all but still.... but my brothers have been telling me “对男生来说，家人跟兄弟是最重要。。。 男声不会为一个女生而活的。。。" thats it, end of story... omg, i feel like screaming... who cares... ah!!!!!!!!!! but... i dunno... i wanna make it last a bit more.. but... its irritating not hearing from him for like a day or more.. fine a day! that's it... 算了吧。。。。

the lolllipop purse.. love it! lol...


the jigsaw necklace thingy...


the pretty flower made by Isaac ( my dad's friends' kid)


i love ya'll
i just want YOU to know, "I MISS YOU..."
ess.....

brand new week!

well...
all is well..
back 2gether... its ok... i mean yeah... we're cool... lol...
its been an ok week so far...
have been eating lots of ice-cream lately... haha...
waffles and ice-cream... mmmm... YUMMILICIOUS... it is so GOOOOD!!! love it...
had half a tub of ice-cream a few nights ago, and then had the other half in the morning for breakfast.. felt good.. =)
gonna have a slpover tonight... yippy!! can't wait, this time its at my house...
tmr is so gonna be a long, tiring, hot day, i can sense it..

this afternoon was AWESOME... i met the cutest guy... well.. in my eyes.. shh... he looks so much like Wentworth Miller.. *sigh.... lovely eyes... i felt so high went he looked at me... haha..
yup... had a waffle ice-cream today too... i betcha we're gonna have more ice-cream tonight.. parties every weekend.. they don't tire me at all...

the waffle ice-cream i had at our store...


the tub of ice-cream that lasted less than a day...


i love this!!


well... life goes on as it is... *winks...
love ya'll
ess

pooped out....

wat a weekend!!!

on sat. we went to the gym,
lost lots of calories,
then went to best-food, really good stuff,
went SHOPPING!!
got the best sweat pants ever, the best investment of the month, love it! so me!!
it was so HOT!! i think we nearly died.. lol... =.=
den my fren n i sat by the road side, no where else to sit, what do you expect? so tired... shopping tires you...
den took a taxi to the store and had a really shoik COKE FLOAT... mmm... that put off the flames of heat... yum....
got the magazine of the month... best magazine so far...
met up with pal at 11pm den went to her hse, watched movies, talked, ate until 6am... tsk tsk tsk, den slept until 10am... watched some more movies den left to go to the store at noon...
nothing happened much after that...
spent the day at home today.. slept until 11am.. my battery still flat after Sat. night, lol.. frens came for lunch today.. wow... big meal... bacon, eggs, bread, salads, drinks, fruit, choc. all just for lunch, till now still "ba" man.. 5pm sth slept, woke up at 7pm, den 5 min. late knock out again, 8pm woke up... went downstairs, walked around, den came back shower, now on9 lor... ya,
i'm having fun... *nods head...
good... sigh...
that's it... haha
love ya'll!
ess

p.s. i wanna say this to you.. i dunno if you'll ever come back... but its more like an apology, kinda found it from ~漩涡~ stephanie sun's song... bits and pieces of the song,
让你当真我的心上了锁，让你绝望的走，成全独立的我。。。
好想顿在角落， 把谴责的眼光都躲过。。。
经理你这一走，最大傻瓜是我。。
没办法拯救自己，除非是你，肯回头，扭转这个结果。。。
but den ~勇气~ also comes to mind...
i'll wait...


the best investment of the year.... my sweat pants.. mine, mine, mine...


hehe.. my fren took this pic. of me... lol... love it.. on sunday..


collage i made Sunday morning... i like her clothes, her attitude, the Escada perfume, the eye-liner (anna sui, they said its good), the shoe ( Chanel), the star thingy (supposed to be earring), i'm Capricorn, and that lipstick color - love it!

well o well..... i wish i wish i wish........

this week has been tough......

why is it just so difficult to trust someone??? or is it me?? i have difficulty trusting some ppl, but i wish i had trusted more than i gave....... maybe sometimes you just have to let go and just love....... that's it....

he told me as long as i'm happy he'll go along with anything i said.... he said "如果能让你辛福，我愿意做。。" if i could just tell me him now... being with you makes me feel happy, will you 接受吗？i'm scared... but i don't wanna leave with any regrets... i don't wanna hav a life filled with regrets... it doesn't feel right.... i want him.... just a few more days and i noe it'll be all over... i'll wait... we need to just closer... i noe.... i ^^^^ him...... lol.... it reminds me of the song... (勇气) i can add... 终于做了这个决定,别人怎么说我不理,只要你一样的肯定,我愿意天涯海角都随你去,我知道一切不容易,我的心一直温习说服自己,最怕你怃然说要放弃...

but ya, i still have my girls around... nothing is better than hanging with my girls.. love you guys!! this weekend is gonna be insane... we're doing the GYM! whoohoo!! and then cool off... and then the best part!! FOOD AND SHOPPING!!! they found a really cheap place and omg... i have to go!! gonna spend the weekend together!! yes!! SLEEPOVER!! i hope we'll last thru the night... haha... love my ladies... haha... so excited...

rmb that kitten, Oreo? its gone insane... it keeps biting me... like biting!! its mommy said its teething thats why its biting.. =.= lol....

Oreo....


last sunday... so blur!!


from today... is that me??? =/ is that my feet??


outside the store... up there.... the moon........


sunset from fren's window...



well... gtg...
love ya'll and YOU!
*ess

whew......

havoc....

i got no idea how long its been since i last updated.... really long, probably??

alot has happened.... the weather got warmer... does that count?? lol....

been going through lots of up and downs recently... diff. to say...

had parties... weird and wrong ones... but we had lots of fun!!!

gone through loads of hardship... new ppl coming in and out of my life.... new things....

learning how to be girl.... well... in other words... i can say i'm not a girl not yet a woman... learning how to control my feelings.... to put others ahead of myself.... haha....

going through a 汤饭( its a local dish which taste awesome!!!) craze with my friends..... which is seriously absolutely insane... u wouldn't believe how many bowls we're eating per day.... but it doesn't make u fat.... i swear...

my buddy got to make a new fren with this cute guy... and he HAD a dog.... so cute... its name was 小白.... cute doggie... but this bitchy girl let the dog run away on purpose... not that easy to tell the whole story... =( the doggie was really cute.... but anyways.... things come and go in your
life right??

and... we had the sleepover of the month last week which was like AWESOME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my friends' parents weren't home during the weekend so we had a major party... don't worry no boys spent the night... lol... i'm telling the truth and nothing but the truth... lol.... i'm serious ok... had a blast of a dinner.... den the fun began... we did loads of make-up so everybody got to choose what they wanted to be made up as... i got to choose my all time fav.... DRACULA'S GIRLFRIEND.... you heard me... wow... what a transformation.... lol......... watched lots of movies... and gossip... wow.... u wouldn't believe it...

there's a new thing in us now... 520... say it in chinese.... it means... 我爱你..... its a cigarette... girl's cigarette... its not that strong as others tho.... it has like an icy taste to it.... mmmm..... it has a heart thingy at the top....

got to take care of a crazy kitten... man... it kept jumping all over me... haha.. lol..

well.... can't think of anything else so far... but just wondering.... why is it so difficult to just lower your pride level a but??? i mean... we're cool but... pride.... pride ruins everything.......... haiz.... *weak smile....

the cigarette that i just came to know of... wow... amazing taste... i did some touching up...


ally's eye... lily with her cam.... me taken some time i dunno when.....


the cute doggie....


the cat... his name is Oreo....


dracula's gf....




gtg.... blow everything off... lol.......
love you!
ess