darn it....

ah!!!!

i feel like such a failure!!! man.... it feels like i've been crying a river for the past few days... a single thought of the u-noe-who would like trigger tears... man... i dun cry so easily... dammit!! but time flies...

had some real great fun today!! lol.. haha... made a new friend.... haha... she's older than me so its more like made a new "pet-sister..." she's real pretty, real fun.... she treated me to a manicure today... got to noe her better...

my brother came and visited me today, he wants to buy my phone at a quite a reasonable price, but i'm still considering, 'cos i waited for like a loooooong time before i finally got it... so he told me to THINK abt it be4 i actually let him buy it... haha..

oh yeah!! it snowed today!! whoa!! it was sunny day, and then it got horribly cold and then it SNOWED... man.... i want summer!!


失去了一切才懂得珍惜。。。。




anyways...
*ess loves u!!

strong on the outside, but weak in the inside...

man....

is it just happening to me, or do other ppl act tough on the outside but actually are broken up inside??

we started making contact again, and gosh... i regret it... he said he wanted to get back together, and that gave me a heart attack... *haiz... called the next day and asked him what's that supposed to mean.... he said he was tippsy so he said that... i mean even so, u're not supposed to do that... it hurts ok... and that date is coming round again... April 6... its like i'm running away...
been really teary these few days, which sux... i can like cry someone a river... and i don't cry so easily??? ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

whatever!! did some stuff tat i noe i shouldn't hav done the last few days... they keep telling me to hang in there... whatever...

before i 4get!! i found someone that looks so much like my man Guang... i can like leave every single memory behind and go for Guang... my new heart throb...

it takes time, that's what they all tell me...

i dunno....
=( ess

i can post sth, but cannot see my blog.... complicated!!

ok....

its been awhile since i updated my blog... I KNOW!!

anyways, the flight from SG to China was cool.... ok... just that we got horrible seats thats all...

um.... i think i have settled down.... i think! i've been seeing the school kids everyday, but the weird thing is that everytime i see them i feel like puking!! gross s*** man!! eeeewwwww....

i miss SG a little...

had real fun yesterday and the day be4 with my girls, did some real crazy stuff... we started blowing bubbles, whoa!! pretty, it felt like i went back to when i was 5 or sth... lol.. n den it happened. i had a MOOD swing... =.= and den i thot of him, the person that is no longer mine, but still in my heart.... i hate that when it happens, it ruins everything! it hurts... anyways, i've cheered up... i'm cool!!! haha... this is called life! felt like crying but it felt like the tears were all dried up.... man... my friend admitted that it really seemed that i was pretending to be ok the whole time she sees me... gosh... its true... it sucks... haiz.... time passes... but i noe there will be someone else out there for me...


love u to bits, ess

bee bom bee bom..... races... with the tick of the clock

hi!

omg!! we are leaving already!! ah!!!! the time is getting nearer! so excited... but darn it, not enuf shopping done, who cares? there's more shopping there!! cheaper too! lol...

but yeah.... =) went out with my parents today, den went to T3, took some pics. not gonna upload now, got some stuff... found the yummilicious choc. that i have been looking for like 4ever!! wow! got some stuff at Mini Toons... love it!! my dad thinks that all of a sudden i'm really interested in MahJiong, i really wanna play, but, i just find it an interesting game... =)

had fish head curry for dinner, not as good, but will do, and got myself lots of Pocky!! love it!! my thing, all of a sudden.. blah!!! lol... =)

so true...


anyways,
have to go PACK!! =)
love u to bits!!
ess...*muaks

last sunday!! whoohoo... Parties here i come!!

hey ya'll!!

slept at 2 am becos i had a cup of green tea bubble tea which affected my sleep... now i swear i am so not gonna touch bubble tea at night! lol....

got up wee early today, got off the wrong stop becos i couldn't find my ez-link card!! darn it! good service talked about Adultery.. wow.... *speechless....

youth group was cool, just that some stuff happened... lol...

went SHOPPING at bugis street with my best friend Jia hui!! got that sweater!! whoohoo!! red, has a crown on it (so my thing), and the color of the red is the same as Man Utd so i am so satisfied... =)

met at Tiong Baru with parents... had "tissu" roti prata, real good.... took neo-prints lol...

make it short,
gtg!
love u all!
ess

day with my cousins!!

aloha....

had a hot, boring, fun, marvelous day with my little cousins today... real fun!! lol... spent half the day on the net... wanted to go out but had no where to go, bored... lol... decided that i would bring my cousin, Kieran, out... went to the playground and spent 5 hrs there... wow!! hot... i met my own kind of ppl, which rocked my world! lol...

will be going out tmr...

leaving on tues.! whoohoo! so ready to go back and party!! i'm coming back baby!!

me and keiran's shadow... lol...


love ya to bits! ess

hey baby!!

well....

the sun came out today!!! =.= the rain was getting cozy.... =( i could hav slept more... sound lazy, but sleep is good!
went out for a walk today... went to grandmother's hse...
had dinner at Bedok Central...
came home, and HERE I AM!! oh ya, met a fren too... long time no see huh??
anyways, nothing much happening... but... i wanna go out tmr!! lol...
love ya to bits...
ess

hey!!

make my day!!

Rainy season is the best season to keep in touch with the net... u can stay at home the whole day and just glue to the com. that's me!! well, i din't go home last night, felt real good.. needed that!!

found a com. hooked on!! i'm obsessed with going on9 la... went on over to my fren's place and logged on....
took a very comfy train trip wif my pal, picked her mom up, and had a BLAST of a dinner..... =)

oh yeah, took some very self-obsessed pics. too, but a few were taken by my photographer Eileen, just kidding.....

amazing view at Vivo City, Sentosa!!! love it...

changed my mine... i love rainy days!!

like so emo...



i love this pic... amazing...


i love you baby! *winks...
ess... *muax...

hey!!

hi.

i went to Vivo City yesterday and had a blast of my life with a friend... i bot JELLY BEANS!!! yum yum... walao eh... dammit lah... yesterday so messed up la... but the JELLY BEANS cheer me up... =)

but den almost become friends with the kind of ppl i like... but den no time... dammit! so much more fun if i could step into their "world".... but everybody keep warning me not to even think about stepping into their "world..." walao! **** it... i dun care what other ppl say la, my choice... i like them so wat??

i wanna fight already leh... slap ppl...
last night din go home... chill outside... shuang leh!!

bb!
babyel

a trip... O.o

like hi!!

it rained today..... like rained non-stop... its like someone turned on the faucets... =.= not really my typical kinda weather... anyways, i just love seeing ppl getting soaked in the rain... lol.. dun ask why!

i went to Temasek Polytechnic to enquire about entry for their school.. like wow!! "O" Levels seem so scary to me. i guess i just have to sit for it after all... but i know i can get good grades on the "O's" i f really concentrate, but the thing is i get distracted like REALLY easy... darn it! CONCENTRATE!!! oh well.. we'll still have to enquire about other schools, research. but Temasek poly is still ok, nice place! there's Cheers there ok!

after that we went to Ahmah's hse. small, but spending a short period of time felt GOOD... saw a pic. of my grandfather, and omg!! my dad is like a Xerox photocopy of him man!! i screamed.. haha..lol.. den the rain came again like God turn on the tap... =.=

i'm really in-between things right now... *sigh... i dunno if i wanna do Applied Food Science & Nutrition or Hotel Management, or maybe even Multimedia. but i know i have more interest in Applied Food Science & Nutrition. anyways, i really need to concentrate and buck up on my work.. haiz...

seriously if you guys have anyway good ways to help me concentrate, tell me!

this was taken at the design corner at Temasek. nice!!


nice right.. rubbish bin leh.. but creative!


i can't flip it, not my com. wahliao!! ( but i like it)


i love Guang...
ess..

darn it...

hey....

this is real bad... like omg... we got back from Penang yesterday right?? well.. then it all started, i had a weird floppy feeling in my stomach... like FLOP... i had some porridge, and then.... i PUKED.. gosh.. but hey, it felt weird, its been a long time since i puked... haha... puked twice ok... last night was horrible... eeeewww.... i thot i wasn't gonna make it through the night... lol... ok fine, i'm just being a little dramatic... but it still felt like that!

i woke up this morning and it felt like i just woke up from a comma... lol... took a super loooooong shower.... and then the day started... but... it feels like i'm in a daze.. dizzy... its like i'm floating, why is that??

anyways,
ESTHER LOVES YOU...

rain...

hi.

the rainy season seems to be here alright... just raining and raining and raining... well... this is called the WEATHER. rainy season... Singapore... *sigh... i feel like crying when it rains, i admit i sometimes do... =( really seems like my mood has been ultimately washed away by the rain...

we're back in Singapore now... just arrived in the house like an hour ago... man... i hate flying... my ears, gosh... *sigh...

i just finished that great book "P.S. I Love You", man... kinda sad, i admit i'm not an easier crier, but this book made my eyes water so many times... gosh... i cried... *sigh... but i still recommend that ya'll read it... its good, but kinda sad... Alright with the sad stuff!!

i still miss him terribly, and i sometimes wonder, when it rains does he see the raindrops too??

oh well.. Note to myself: GET OVER IT ALREADY!

i love you guys!!
ess...

Fort Cornwallis... Segafredo Cafe.... love it...

hey hey!!

wassup guys?? man.. what a blast and its all ending already!! never mind... i have good memory.. never mind the so-called photographic memory....

yesterday my mother and i went to Fort Cornwallis... gosh... it kinda gives me the spooks, but its all embedded into my brain... lol.. wateva.... well... we walked there and payed an admission fee of 3RM... dirt CHEAP!! it was great.. there were wild horses grazing on the grass while tourists were walking around... lol... there was the Chapel that Sir Francis Light(the guy that found the fort... etc..) built... there were galleries on the history of the fort, there was the Cell Room.. omg... scared the living shit out of me!!! *shivers... i noe... u're probably thinking i'm being my ususal Drama Queen and all, but you can't blame me for watching tooooooo many ghostly documentaries... i got so easily frightened at the fort... then there cannons, that could shoot before... like duh!! haha... there were these guys that were so CUTE, (i noe wat you're thinking), i have no idea where there'll from, maybe Europe or sth.. but i was standing next to one of the cannons, when he said... " Do you think these K-NANS (meaning cannons.. his accent... wow!!) shoot?" not really concentrating on what he said, i responded saying " Ya, i think so.. " i mean, whats he trying to do? i mean of course it doesn't shoot!! lol... he probably thinks i have a good sense of humor... lol... goodness... we went home in a trishaw.. first time sitting in a trishaw!! i feel so dumb saying that.. WATEVA!


anyway...
i had brunch at an Italian cafe today called the Segafredo Cafe (too bad they don't have a branch in SG... i noe becos i checked...) wow!! brilliant everything!! from the flooring to the food... wow... i love it! when i say that i love something... i MEAN it... =) i had a Shredded Chicken sandwich thingy... and a Tower Block... beautiful yummilicious drink.. hmmmm... magnificent!! its a triple mango, orange, and pineapple drink.. awsome!! love the color, and love the blend of juice... gosh.. darn the other camera for having such a complicated memory card... and darn my laziness for not charging my MP4 last night!! i have the pics.. lol.. wateva!!

so i guess we're just staying in the hotel the rest of the night till dinner... =)

me in front of the hotel with their statue.. (dun u just love its tongue??)


at the entrance after the ticket booth in Fort Cornwallis...


see.. even the horse likes me.. he came closer to me.. lol..

the Fort Cornwallis cannon...


the swing that Sir Francis Light had built back then...


I LOVE GUANG!!
ess...

uh huh....

hey guys!!!

well, today i was supposed to have breakfast at the Revolving Restaurant, but i got up at 8 and was all dressed and done at 8:30... too late, breakfast was over!! gosh.. but i doesn't really bother me 'cos they said the food was HORRIBLE.... eeeeewwww.... but i really want to go to the revolving restaurant... there was this guy... haha... he said that at night the Revolving Restaurant is like really pretty... the view etc... anywhooo...

i had toast, a sausage, and a fried egg for breakfast. the egg was horrible... i fry better eggs... seriously... there were these colonial houses like all broken apart... like not complete...looks like HAUNTED houses.... sth really funny was that, i was taking a pic. of one of them near the so-called beach place, and i was telling my mom that there might be ghosts in it, getting myself all spooked out, all of a sudden, i heard the sound of ringing bells.... gosh!! scared me real BAD!!!! uh..... they were actually coming from the collars of these 2 really beautiful dogs... this is what happens when you watch too many horror movies... for example, "THE HOUSE".. FREAKY thai horror show...! lol...*shivers....

oh well... stayed in the hotel room most of the day... slept.. so COMFY... finally a good nap... PEACE & QUITE... lol...



miss u all!!
ess...

Penang!!

hey everybody!

we have FINALLY arrived in Penang... just that my left ear is still plugged... gosh... hurts like wow man!! we took Air Asia from Johor Bahru's Senai Airport... SMALL airport...

arrived in Penang at 11:15am... BEAUTIFUL place!! i recommend that if you wanna come for a holiday, come to PENANG... we are currently staying at Bayview Hotel. nice hotel.. the hotel is located in Georgetown, previously a British colonial territory... lots of old British buildings around, i find it really fascinating... i just LOVE history... =) anywhoo...

had Indian food for lunch today... and then we went to visit THE CHOCOLATE BOUTIQUE!!!! ah!!! once i saw it at the map this morning, i have been anticipating to just get there!!! ah!!!! took lots of pictures with my mom's camera, but the pictures can't load into my laptop cos the card isn't any ordinary card, its SPECIAL.. but took a few pics. with my MP4.. we bought the Mint & Bitter CHOCOLATE, which is practically just mint and dark CHOCOLATE!! hmmmm.... taste so YUMMY!! and we also bought another, which is 70% dark CHOCOLATE... hmmmm.... i just LOVE DARK CHOCOLATE... JUST MY THING! ooooo... i love that place!!

palm tree infront of the hotel window...


view from the hotel window...


that lady is Aunty Janet, i'm sharing a room with her.


the sign of THE CHOCOLATE BOUTIQUE.


LOVE YA!!
ESS...

p.s. i will post the pics. of me in THE CHOCOLATE BOUTIQUE soon!!!

packed my bags and ready to go!!

alo...

i've packed my bags and ready to go to PENANG!!! this is like my first time going to PENANG!! i was really anticipating to go swimming when we get there, but something really unexpected happened... something happened to my body and now i can't swim, or i might turn the pool to a different color... ahhh!!! just my luck indeed!! whoohoo.. i can't wait to get there!! there will be pictures!!



well... i hope the weather in PENANG won't be rainy like SG... its been raining... gosh!! i'm just repeating so many times that its been raining... i'm just so SICK of it now...

anywhoo... i can't wait... we'll be leaving at 6 am in tomorrow... and then take 2 taxi rides.. and then take a plane trip!! lol.. so fun... this time round coming back to SG is like one of the funnest ever!!

love ya!
ess

haha... Sunday again...

hey hey!!

its another Sunday.... and it was sunny, which gave me really high hopes, but after like an hour or sth, it RAINED... ok, its been raining for like along time, even though it stops.... i feel like i'm in a RAIN FOREST.... gosh... but it is FUN to walk home in the rain without an umbrella... there's that sense of FREEDOM... lol....

anywhoo.... we went for dinner with Aunty Karyn and her family at this really really really good Chicken Rice restaurant... gosh... its like, well FINE... i don't really know the name of the location but if you take bus 32 from Bedok Interchange you can get there... that is if you bring me along... HAHA!! oh... really really goooood... n den, there were these cute guys.. haha.. wateva... u'll noe how the story goes... you guys have probably heard them so many times! lol... =)

we'll be going to Penang for a conference on Tuesday, and will be there for 3 nights 4 days ( reminds me of that day when my cousin asked how long we'll be in Penang, and i told her.. "oh, we'll be there 4 NIGHTS, 3 DAYS..." lol... crap man!!). so ya, we'll be in a hotel.. gosh.. i hope there's internet connection there!! i need to update my blog! lol... haha...

in youth group today, we discussed about Divorcing... WOW.... i shall not elaborate on the subject.

a pic. with my pisai queen cousin... eeee... at T3 on sat.
this skinny statue refers to ME...



this rounder statue refers to pisai queen!! haha... jking... lol... really?? haha.. trying to make ppl confused... wateva la... LAME.
.

anywhoo...
love me!
ess

Day at the Airport...

oh man...

i woke up at like 8:20 am today... omg... its a miracle i can wake up so early... so early lah... den reach airport early, in other words, just in time... but den... someone take so long to arrive... miss the Delifrance buffet breakfast ok!! can't blame her la, becos we also dunno that they had buffet breakfast... haha.. lol... wateva.. den i had this really really yummilicious peach thing.. damn.. i forgot what its called... anyways its really good, but its really flaky... =/

den after that... we move to MCD at T2... walk to T2 ok... still can get lost... go up to 3rd floor... den walk right into office tower.. walao... they said take 12 min. to walk to T2... now we understand why it take 12 min. first 5 min. u walking there, the other 5 you are lost wondering around, where is the entrance, den the final 2, u juz step inside the terminal... tsk tsk tsk... den sat at MCD for like countless of hours...

took skytrain to T3... damn BIG ok... shopping mall... den someone told me a story abt another person's hse like museum... nice story... HILARIOUS...

on the way home, we found out that we were really fated... we saw the same group of girls 4x today... hiaz...freaky lah... coincidental... i love BIG words... lol...

anywhooo...
i felt so JUBILANT today... lol... JUBILANT...

luv ya!
ess